Monday, February 06, 2006

Evolution...

I was breezing over my previous blogs. Its pretty amazing that at certain times in your life, certain things take up so much of your brain's processing power and your energies that you almost lose track of the bigger picture.

What IS the bigger picture? And I have been quizzing myself about that question as well. But your bigger picture need not be the same as mine. In fact in all probability, it won't be. But the important thing is to try and find out what it is and then always keep that in mind.

I know for sure that working as a Software Engineer in the Silicon Valley is not part of my bigger picture. Its fantastic exposure, I have learned a lot and I have met some truly fantastic people. But again, this means of earning a living does not figure in my bigger scheme of things.

What does? With the help of Srini, one of my colleagues (great engineer, good human being, good father etc etc are all some adjectives that I can effortlessly associate with him) I managed to do some psycho-analysis as to what I want to do and what perhaps will make me happy. I arrived at some conclusions which weren't totally new to me.

I also realised that sooner rather than later, I want to try and transform these dreams into living, breathing albeit successful or failing realities. There is also some sort of trail that I have laid down before me to try and achieve that! What needs to be seen is if that trail can actually lead to my destination.

There are primarily 2 kinds of people when it comes to taking risks. The first kind who prefer to have taken them and learnt from their successes or failures and others who prefer to stay way from them from the fear of a bad after-taste in the mouth. I'm trying to transform myself from the latter to the former with minimum fuss. And writing about this in a blog is something that will always keep me honest to my task...